Facebook

I have an addiction. It's facebook. I'm on it a lot. On my computer and on my phone. It's like I can't stop myself. I want to. I want to pay more attention to my kids. I feel like since my grandmother died I've become immersed into computers and phones. I didn't used to be like that but after her death the computer kept me sane. Now, I just am on it way too much. I feel like I'm missing out on my kids' lives. That's so horrible to do and feel that way. I want to change. I want to be a good mom. I really truly do. My oldest is leaving for a few weeks to go with his grandparents in Indiana. I will miss him terribly. He drives me crazy most of the time and makes huge messes....but I will miss him badly. I want to be a better mom to him. I want to so so badly. I feel like I failed him in many ways...moving around a lot, then me going crazy when my grandmother died...I was horrible. I barely remember. A1 has had a rough life...and I sometimes take my anger out on him. I shouldn't. He's a great kid and I love him with most of my heart (A2 and DH get the rest.) :)

I think I'm going to actively try to be a better mom. Step 1 - stop using facebook so damn much.

Indiana

We currently reside on the east coast, but my husband's family lives in Indiana. Just starting this year (now that A1 is starting Kindergarten in August) he has stayed with my husband's parents for a few weeks. We tried in January and it went well. Now, he's going out there for a few weeks again. We are taking him out, they are bringing him back. I enjoy trips to Indiana. I like the scenery, the atmosphere and the overall 'sense' of a road trip. This time we are pretty tight on money, so we are packing food to take with us and eat on the ride up instead of stopping at fast food places. It should be fun! I'm excited about it. I hope the trip goes well. A2 is 10 months now instead of 6 and I don't have to make the trip back home alone so it should go well!

Rustic Earth

So, I took some pictures of my candles today. Better pictures so I can sell them. I think they turned out okay - could be better. These are just a few:

You can find the rest of my pictures and my business page here. 

I really want this business to take off. I'm working out of my kitchen right now, so space is limited, but I enjoy making things. I'm hoping to sell some more so I can get better/more supplies. I found a few people selling their old candle business stuff, so I'm searching on craigslist for items. I know it's not easy, but I enjoy doing it. I especially enjoy the grubby candles. Those are fun to make! (Two purple candles above) 

I took some pictures of some flowers growing around our property today. 

I miss my Nikon my husband got my for my birthday...it broke less than a week after having it. UGH. In the future, I do plan on getting a DSLR. I have to learn how to use it though first...

Well, signing off here, enjoy this picture of one of our chickens! 

2 years later.

I started this blog at the insistance of my dad. I kept up on it for a short time, but then lost interest. I do that. I lose interest in things and then stop doing them. I'm going to stop doing that. I need to finish the things that I start. I'm so incredibly bad at that.

I recently started a candle and soap-making company with my friend S. She makes soaps, I make candles. I love it so far. I'm just trying to get 'out there' so people will buy my stuff. I promised my mom and another person a few free small candles for them to.try and see if they like them. Mom said she was going to help get my name out there. I made business cards and have a page on facebook. Tomorrow I think I'm going to make some more candles and do a photo shoot with all of them. They are all wrapped up and ready to go! I did get an order from a friend out of state, so that is exciting. I'm eager to start on it.

My page on facebook is Rustic Earth. Please visit and like!! (And buy some candles!)

I have 2 sons. A1 is 5 almost 6 and A2 is almost 10 months. Their birthdays are both in August. Double birthday this year! It should be fun. I can't believe I have two kids and I can't believe my oldest will be 6 and starting kindergarten in 3 short months. Time flies.