Why Me?

I did what I could
I acted the way I should

I tried with all my might

To do just one thing right

I made mistakes, but doesn't everyone?

I did have something

Now I have no one

In my dreams I see your smile

It makes dreaming all worthwhile

If I could turn back the hands of time

I'd do everything right and you'd be mine

Why Me?

I did what I could
I acted the way I should
I tried with all my might
To do just one thing right
I made mistakes, but doesn't everyone?
I did have something
Now I have no one
In my dreams I see your smile
It makes dreaming all worthwhile
If I could turn back the hands of time
I'd do everything right and you'd be mine

Just Be Me?

Why can't I be like, why can't they open their eyes?
I'm not what you think, I am what you despise
I'm hated and abused for the sake of being me
Why can't they like what they see?
Why I can't I just be me?



I wrote this while in highschool. A lot of the poems that will be posted I wrote when I was in highschool.

A Little Off Subject...

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A Poem of Lovers; A poem of Life and Death

Sun shines ever so bright
Never felt this cold
A man full of might
Has never felt so old
A child is born, the perfect sight
Many times her body sold
A father and son fly a kite
Gunned down so quickly, bodies now cold
Never dying spirit radiant with life
Ends so sudden without warning
A man finds a woman to make his wife
That ends so quickly as night becomes morning
Sweet nothings whispered in the ears of a lover
Mean nothing as she lies in someone else's arms
A man and a woman created perfect for each other
But the man is seduced by another woman's charms
Moonlight glistens off the ocean waves
That destroy an island with hundreds of souls
A child happily waits for many days
His mother killed when his father looses control
It's a crazy life beyond our reach
If bad things didn't happen then what's the use?
It's here as a joke and to teach
Some learn, some don't-it's for you to choose

Lovers

The word I cannot utter calls
Shh. The secret is out
Spread the word quiet-like
It's in the alleys behind the slums
Echoing
In the bedroom
In the lounge
Among the wild flowers
Lovers blood
Timidly revealing
Love in his eyes
Lust in his heart
Coaxing off the layers
Silky skin against rough hands
Caressing
He slowly inches
She braces and kisses his soft lips
Tongue searching and tasting
He pushes and Pulls
Her legs around his hips
Arching against him
He nuzzles her breasts
She looks in his eyes
They go to heaven and back together
Releasing himself into her
Screams Echo
They return to earth
He leaves
She cries
The act repeated
A heart broken

Old Wounds, New Love

I remember the past

The talks

The laughs

The tears

All that were so clear to my heart have faded away

Broken hearts never heal

I loved him once

I miss our talks

And the feeling of new love

It's gone now and I have a love

He is my only

But I still remember his voice

I'm glad for the talks

I regret not a moment

I still wonder...

But I have a love

Sleeping soundly in bed, I look at him

And even though we are arguing, I love him with all my being

I wouldn't trade him for anyone in the world

He's my life

I would die without him

But I still remember his voice...

Untitled by myself and my husband, written a few years ago

The rose petals wilt as the bee stings
The sky gets dark and drops fall lightly
The child picks daisies and softly sings
The man whispers sweet nothings ever so lightly
The girl slides the knife hard across her wrist
The boy holds the gun cold against his chin
The boy and the boy lean in for their first kiss
The virgins shaking in the bed don't know where to begin
It's funny how life puts you in these positions
Making you make all the bullshit decisions
But you have no choice, you gotta live it
Just sit back, watch, and enjoy as the world goes to shit

The Teenager

I cried my teenage tears
I slit my teenage wrists
I rejected my teenage peers
I dwelled on that teenage kiss
I bled my teenage blood
I thought my teenage thoughts
I cursed my teenage moods
I cursed the things you bought
I'll cry my teenage tears forever
As long as there is no love
My teenage soul will be alive again never
Set it free with a single white dove
You dig my teenage grave
I'll lie there so still
Place me in that underground cave
Always love you I will
Place an angel above my head
And place it do gently
Friends and Family do not dread
For my place beyond is heavenly
I killed my teenage teen
So everyone could see me
I died for you so I could be washed clean
Now just let me go and set me free

Unnamed Song

Living with the lies spat out of your mouth
We trusted your judgement once, but never again
We were willing to give you a little bit of clout Until you caused us incurable suffering and pain Scratching the skin until we bled dry
We have nothing but the lives you've slain
Do you feel guilty when you hear the cries?
Do you feel guilty when you tell your lies?
 Chorus: Fuck your friends when we need you, no one shows
Fuck your little secrets everybody knows
Fuck the way you treat us and the way you pretend to care
Fuck everything about you - how dare you say it's fair
 Chorus
I hate the way we hurt, like we weren't meant to live
 I gave up listening to you, when you talk, my mind's a sive
Your rules and regulations making everyone insane
But it's not you who must live with the pain
With or without you, we'll make it through Just so you know, we don't need you **
You're the one who lied
You're the one who told us its okay
You're the one who cried
When you realized you had nothing more to say
 Chorus

The Boxer's Ode to Life

Uttering vile words as he looks at his bruised face
He tastes blood and sees spots
This is the day of triumph
The crowd chants his glorious name and screams
When he limps our onto stage
The lights are bright
He's drunk with glory, sucking the bottle dry
Soaring above the rest
The lights dim, wounds are bandaged
Limping into the car, the backseat awaits
Beautiful Angel screams his name
The lights are off but shine brightly
As he soars again, drink with love, he sips the bottle
The lights are on, the pants are zipped
Revving the engine the car screams his name
He didn't see the lights and the sound of murder
Broken glass fills the fumed air
He closes his eyes, he sees the lights
They're colorful, then the lights go out
Nothingness consumes him and he is ceased
No lights here - just peace